Our 2 months is great, still smooth like our first month. Woke up slightly early to cook aglio olio, well idk it’s abit salty somehow but glad he love it, and just chilled enjoying the nature till its almost dusk. Talked more about us and sorry love if I were to asked you alot of question, I just want to know you better, that’s all. Hee. But when It come to end our day, something been caught up. Mum called started ranting about me going home late. Huff. First of all, its my fault for not informing her I’ll be home late so yes. I’m sorry if I were to make you worried. It’s totally not Hakeem’s fault for bringing back home late, it was me. I did say sorry to you but you told me not to talk to you so, okay, I give some distance around us but till when? Why can’t you give me some space when im outside? I’m turning big 2-0 this year but yet I got not much freedom. But my fault too for disobey her words and trust. Huff. Idk what else to say, just hope everything will be fine as soon as possible.
There I said it. I tell him the truth. I know its late to tell him but rather now than later. I know I was wrong giving in, but due to lust, I cannot help it. Im sorry to you love but I was hoping your love towards me din change and accept me for who I am. Everyone had a bad experience and past right? Sigh. I still feel filthy even right now when I talk about it. Yea even if we din leads something beyond but that thing is also part of it. I even get scared for the future and myself. Im scared you wont accept me for who I am. Huff. Im sorry, im sorry everyone. Tomorrow will be our 2nd month but im too scared it wont be the same anymore like how we used to spend time tgt. Been thinking about it lately till it getting on my nerves so I better guts up and tell him the truth. Im sorry love, im truely sorry. I love you, and it wont change a thing.
A day out with this two bugger but indeed well time spent. Silly haircut but hey hair can grow!
Last minute outing to collect my cheque and off to bugis with this annoying boy. He just getting more and more annoying, really pain in the ass sometimes but still i love him as he is now :) and oh! A day to remember indeed ♡